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All Deviations
All Deviations




Why is it so hard?

It’s all I really want,

But it’s the last thing I can reach.

I struggle to come to grips with it,

I try to force my vocal cords to move,
My lungs to exhale,
My tongue to take a certain shape,
Lips to move, press together, open wide.
The wind moves through my teeth
My heart races wildly,

But I can’t make it come.

The truth leaves my body.
In one slow exhale.
Not in the words it should.

Wrong form

I see the disappointment in your eyes
The guilt weighs heavy on my shoulders
I look to you with apology in my eyes
But you’ve turned your back to me again

Disgust is in the air, a repugnant odor mixed with failure.

I’m sorry I couldn’t give you what you wanted.

I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
But my truth just seems to evade my words.
©2005-2008 ~endofeternity
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~hausfrau:iconhausfrau: Jul 28, 2005, 5:42:08 AM
Powerful.

I read this, and I can apply it to many situations I've lived through. Conflicts with friends, siblings, parents, significant others and even now with my own kids. I feel I've played all the characters at one point or another.

I think many people will be able to relate to these words and the frustration in them.

For me, I find it very theraputic to be able to step outside myself and anyalyze conflicts from all perspectives....sometimes that helps me by presenting a bigger picture and can change what I know the truth to be.

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~Nohbudy:iconNohbudy: Jul 28, 2005, 5:02:11 PM
Too bad the truth is hidden behind a brick wall.

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~imageek:iconimageek: Jul 28, 2005, 7:36:29 PM
yet again, this perfectly describes how i feel in life sometimes

you have a way of describing every emotion i struggle with

its incredibly reasuring to know i have at least one more person i can reside in

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~endofeternity:iconendofeternity: Jul 31, 2005, 5:30:24 AM
As usual....<3

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"And then I stabbed him in the eye with a pencil!"
~PerpetuallySmiling:iconPerpetuallySmiling: Aug 1, 2005, 5:06:37 PM
This is something everyone can relate to at one point or another. Thing is, truth is almost always harder to say. However, taken from the perspective of looking at the 'big picture'...it ends up being exponentially harder to deal with the mounting guilt everytime the truth fails to find its way out, and not only is the guilt mounting from every other non-truth combined over time, but as each goes along, the guilt keeps stacking more for the longer one keeps the information away from the target. It's similar to keeping emotions bottled up, but different at the same time. Venting emotions is one thing...but try telling the truth after a while of not...you need to fight against the thoughts of possible consequences for withholding originally, and then there is that much more negative backlash...so which is worse?...continually mounting guilt, frustration, anguish, etc., or something negative you can't control?

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